hump day

B: 1 c. strawberries + 1/4 c. egg beater w/diced mushroom, pepper.onion w/ 1/4 c. shredded cheese

L: 1 c. zucchini + 1 c. brussel sprouts + 1/4 c. cheese

SN: 1 c. pineapple juice

D: 1/2 c. gardein beefless tips + 1/2 c. broccoli + 1/2 c. mushrooms w/ sauce

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Morning weigh in: 373.4

Tried to pedal and my leg is so swollen it's painful. Like the skin is being stretched. Really trying not to worry, but I can't help it. Keep waking up at night and it's hard to get back to sleep. I'm obsessing over my health issues and I don't know what to do.

Disgusted with it all

B: 1 c strawberries

L: 2 c. low-carb taco soup + 1 tbsp. tofutti sour cream + 1/4 c. cheese

D: beyond burger on Udi bun w/mustard + 4 oz potato w/salsa

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Morning weigh in: 373.6

I'm tired. I don't give a damn about my weight. I'm tired of trying and seeing no results. No one cares enough to figure out what's wrong with me.

Not Monday AGAIN!

B: 3/4 c. Cheerios + 3/4 c. soymilk

L:  Impossible Whopper

D: 1/2 c. Jyoti peas & paneer + 1/2 c. Jyoti chickpeas w/potatoes & onions

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Morning weigh in: 373.0

Saw my PCP today. She will try to get me in with neurologist in Roanoke whenever. I was concerned with my swelling feet/legs. She flipped out which did not help me. She acted like they never swell. I had to remind yes, they do and you're the one who diagnosed lymphedema last year. It really irked me. I know I get a bit angry now easily, but really?? Damn, I've been seeing her like 10 years. Then she went back to her computer notes and I'm thinking, So what about the swelling? It was such a waste. I feel that way anymore. I'm a mystery to everyone. Why can't I lose weight? Why are my legs swelling? Why am I having these mini-strokes if I'm in such great health?? My faith in the medical system was not good but this has made it even worse. Why bother going to a DR or the ER??

Sunday

L: 6 oz. cod + 4 small mini sweet peppers baked w/ 1/8 c. shredded cheese + 1 c. roasted brussels sprouts

D:  2 c. low carb taco soup w/ 1 tbsp. tofutti sour cream + 1/4 c. shredded cheese


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Asthma flared up today. Neighbors were burning scrap pile all afternoon until after 2 am last night. I couldn't sleep because of the fire being so close to the house. And the smoke was drifting in and all you could smell was the smoke. UGH. Again, they left around 11pm last night and fire was still blazing. Idiots.

the weekend!!

B: Juice: 3 kale leaves, 1 lemon, 1 carrot, 1 apple, 1 cucumber

SN: Atkins protein shake

L: 2 c. salad mix+ 1/2 c.cucumber + 1/8 c. shredded cheese + 2 tbsp.ranch dressing + 7 morningstar parmesan garlic veggie wings

SN: 1 popsicle (Outshine sugar free juice bar)

D: 1 beyond burger + 4 oz potato w/ 1/8 c. shredded cheese + salsa

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Morning weigh in: 369.8

Slept in this morning which was much needed. I also sat outside for a few hours today. First real nice warm day I've been able to. I think it was much needed, a bit of fresh air, and "outside". New neighbors still working on new house and burning wood. UGH. Finally had to go inside to escape the burnt wood smell.

Hello May

B: 3/4 c. Cheerios + 3/4 c. soymilk + 1 c. coffee w/creamer

L: Taco bell black bean wrap fresco style (black beans, pico de gallo, lettuce) + 1 oz. nuts

D: 3 slices tofurky deli slices + 1 slice cheddar cheese + 2 slices Udi multigrain bread + mustard

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Morning weigh in: 370.4

Why isn't it the weekend yet

B: 1/4 c. egg beater + 1/4 c. shredded cheese + 1 morningstar breakfast patty + 1 c.coffee w/creamer

L: 1 c. zucchini+ 1/4 c. alfredo sauce + 1/8 c. shredded cheese + 1 tofurky sausage

D:  1 spicy chick'n patty + 1 carbmaster yogurt

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Morning weigh in: 370.8

I'm so mad I could cry. How can my weight go up  1.5 lbs on what I eat??? I'm so disgusted with it all.

I'm so tired. I don't know how much longer I can go on. I barely made it out of bed this morning. I am exhausted.

Got my new meter in. It shows exact same readings as old one. Crap, why are my blood sugars so bouncy?

Hump day

B: 3/4 c. Cheerios + 3/4 c. unsw. soymilk + 1/2 c. pineapple juice + 1 c. coffee w/ silk vanilla creamer

L: 2 c. salad mix + 1/8 c. shredded cheese + 1 c. cucumber + 2 tbsp ranch dressing + 1 1/2 serving Morningstar Parmesan garlic chickn "wings" bites (about 8)

D: 1 beyond burger + 1 Udi bun + mustard + 9 fries + 1 c. zucchini

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Morning weigh in: 369.4
30 min pedaling

Ran to Kroger for a clicklist pickup order last night and it was all I could do to put the groceries away. I was so tired. I think I did myself a disservice coming home from the hospital and going back to work the very next day. If I had been actually going into work and not working from home, I would have taken a few days off to recover. I should have done that anyhow. I am so tired all the time, like I can't catch up and I need a day of sleep. I'm looking forward to Saturday so I can sleep in.

Tuesday

B: 3/4 c. cheerios + 3/4 c. unsw. soymilk + 1/2 c. pineapple juice + 2 c coffee w/silk vanilla creamer

L: 1 1/2 c. zucchini + 6 asparagus + 1/4 c. cheese + 1 tbsp. olive oil + 1 Atkins protein shake

D: black bean wrap with lettuce/pico de gallo

SN: 1 carbmaster lemon yogurt
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Morning weigh in: 369.4

Well, it only took a bit over 2 weeks to get off 10 lbs of water I gained in 3 days. :(

I fell asleep yesterday during the middle of the day. Just nodded off. Not exactly exciting here working from home. I feel tired and have a hard time getting up in the morning now. My speech is good but I find myself searching for a word sometimes.

I ordered a new meter. I've had the same one for about 8 years I think and it shows my blood sugars all over the place. Really hoping it's just the meter.

Monday again

1115am: 3/4 c. Cheerios + 3/4 c. unsweetened soymilk + coffee + 2 tbsp. Silk vanilla creamer + 1/2 c. pineapple juice

230pm: 6 asparagus spears + 1 c. zucchini + 1/4 c. shredded cheese + 1/2 olive oil + 1 apple

630pm: 1 beyond burger on a Udi bun w/ mustard + 1 c. swiss chard

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Morning weigh-in: 370

30 min pedaling

Sunday Rest

1030am: 1 corn tortilla + 1/4 c. egg beater + 1/8 c. shredded cheese + 1 tbsp. taco sauce + 1 c. strawberries + 2 c. coffee w/coconutmilk creamer

230: 2 c. salad mix + 1/2 c. cucumber + 1/8 c. shredded cheese + 2 tbsp ranch + 1 quorn chick'n cutlet

430pm: 1 Atkins protein drink + 1 teriyaki vegan jerky

7pm: 1 serving GF/Vegan potato soup + 1/4 c. shredded  cheese

830pm: 1 apple + 1 oz cheese

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I took a nap today. It was wonderful and much needed!

25 min pedaling

Jeff wanted potato soup today and I had some potatoes I needed to get rid of.  I can't remember the last time I made (or ate) potato soup. It was a good recipe with only 118 calories for a 2 cup serving (18 carb,2 g fat, 6 pro). I think it's the best I've ever made using soymilk.