welcome friday

B: 1/2 c. egg beater + 1/4 c cheese

L: 2 c zuccini w/1/4 c cheese + 1 tbsp jalepeno cream cheese + atkins protein shake

D: 2 c. stirfry veggies + 1/2 serving seitan

SN: atkins snack bar

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Morning weigh in: 371.6

thursday

B: 1/2 c egg beater + 1/3 c cheese + 1 tbsp jalepeno cream cheese + tea

L: 2 c zucchini + 1/4 c cheese + 1 tbsp jalepeno cream cheese + atkins protein shake

D: taco soup w/1 tbsp sour cream

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Morning weigh in: 373.2

another day

B: 1/2 c. egg beater + 1/4 c cheese

L: taco bell veggie power bowl (no rice) [=lettuce, guac, salsa, black beans, sour cream, cheese]

SN: 1 atkins snack bar

D: beyond burger + 1 c. mashed cauliflower + 1 c. cucumber + 1 tbsp butter

SN: 2 SF popsicles

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Morning weigh in: 376

Attempting to cut the carbs again.....although it doesn't matter what I eat so I don't know why I bother.

what day is it?

B: 1/2 c. egg beater + 1/8 c cheese + tea

L: 2 c salad +1 c. cucumber + 1 spicy chick'n + 2 tbsp ranch + 8 olives

SN: atkins protein shake

D: 4 oz salmon + 1 c. green beans + 1 tbsp butter

SN: 2 SF popsicles

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Morning weigh in: 377.2

blah blah Monday

B/L: 1 serving keto pancakes w/ SF syrup + tea

D: 2 c. salad +1/2 c. cucumber + 2 tbps pumpkin seeds + 3 tbsp ranch dressing + quorn Cutlet

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Morning weigh in: 374

Sunday

B: 1 biscuit w/ginger preserves + tea

L:  beyond burger w/ 1 c. cucumber

D: 4 oz baked cod w/ 2 c. brussel sprouts w/ 1/2 tbsp butter + 1/8 c. shredded cheese

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Morning weigh in:  375.8

weekend!

B/L: 1/2 c. egg beaters + 1/2 c. cottage cheese + 1 morningstar patty

D:  1c. angel hair pasta + 1/2 c. alfredo sauce + 1 tofurky soysage + 1 c. broccoli florets

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Morning weigh in: 376.2

Friday again

B: 1/2 c. egg beaters + 1 morningstar patty + 1/8 c. shredded cheese

L/D: Impossible whopper

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Morning weigh in: 377.2

Frickin' scales

B: 1/4 c. egg beaters + 1 morningstar patty + 2 street tacos + taco sauce

L: 1 c brussel sprouts + 1 c. carrots + 1 quorn chick'n w/ bbq sauce

D: beyond burger w/ 2 c. mustard greens

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Morning weigh in:  377.2

Hump day

B: 1/2 c. egg beater + 1/2 c. cottage cheese

L: Impossible whopper

D: 1/2 Udi's pizza w/ 1 c. berries

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Morning weigh in: 375.8

Tuesday

B: 1/2 c. egg beaters + 1/2 c. cottage cheese + 1/2 c/ strawberries + 1/8 c. shredded cheese

L: 2 tbsp hummus + 2 c. zucchini + 8 olives + 1 tbsp olive oil + 2 figs/ 2 apricots

D: beyond burger + 1 c.broccolini w/1/8 c. cheese

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Morning weigh in: 373.8

Monday...again!

B: 1/2 c. egg beaters + 1/2 c. cottage cheese

L: Impossible whopper

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Morning weigh in: 371.8

Blahhhh

L: 1 whole wheat pita + 2 tbsp hummus + 1/2 c. cucumber

D: 2 c. stir fry veggies w/ 1 quorn chick'n (plain)

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Morning weigh in: 371.8

Didn't eat alot today as I've been feeling sick today.

ahhh....the weekend

B: 1/2 c. egg beaters + 1/2 c. cottage cheese

L: 2 tbsp. hummus+ 8 olives + 1 c. cucumber + 2 oz cheese + 2 figs/2 apricots

D: 4 oz. baked cod + 3 mini sweet peppers w/2 tbsp cream cheese + 1 c spinach

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Morning weigh in: 371.8

TGIF

B: 1/2 c. vanilla yogurt + 3 figs + 3 dried apricots + 1/2 c. strawberries

L: 2 c. salad + 10 olives + 1 tbsp. sliced almonds + 1/8 c. shredded cheese + 1 spicy chick'n patty + 2 tbsp. ranch

D: Impossible whopper

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Morning weigh in: 371

I ate a biscuit yesterday! It was a nice change. See a change in my weight? It doesn't matter what I eat, number goes up/number goes down, but it never really changes. Why bother.

Number game continues

B: 1 biscuit + 1 morningstar farm breakfast patty + 2 c tea

L:  1 taco bell black bean burrito fresco style

D: 1 spicy chick'n patty + 1 c. green beans + 1/2 tbsp. butter

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Morning weigh in: 371.2

Why should I care what I eat? What's the purpose of eating so damn healthy and low calorie if I'm not losing weight and I will continue the numbers game????

Hump day, no humor

L: 1 carbmaster yogurt + 2 c. zucchini w/ 1/8 c. shredded cheese + 1 tbsp. olive oil

D: 4 oz salmon + 2 c. rainbow chard + 2 SF popsicles

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Morning weigh in: 370

It feels like number game. I can't break 370. In a day or two, I will gain 4 lbs over night and here we will be once again, trying to get back to 370.This is my life. Over and over.

Not sleeping well

L: 2 slices Udi's cheese pizza + salad (1c.romaine + red pepper + 1/8c. shredded cheese + 1 tbsp ranch)

D: taco salad (2 cups romaine + boca crumbles + 1/8 c. shredded cheese + tofutti sour cream + salsa)

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Morning weigh in:  371

I'm not sleeping well again. I wake up several times a night and it's hard for me to go back to sleep. I still can't get under 370. What is my problem? How can anyone stay this fat on what I'm eating? Maybe I should just quit eating and see what happens. My God, surely I can't keep gaining weight, can I????

My boss asked if I was interested in an alternate work schedule when we get back to "normal". Some folks want to work four 10-hour days. I remember a time I would have jumped at that. Now I can barely make it through 8 hours. I did request the telework option twice a week. I don't know how I'm going to get back to a normal work schedule the way I feel. I told him I wasn't doing as well as I thought and I should have taken a few days off instead of going straight back to work. He agreed and said he was surprised I did that. Well, I thought I could. I'm just not bouncing back as quickly as I have before. There's something different here. I remember the doom and gloom I felt last year. This seems worse. But I can tell I'm better than I was two weeks ago. I've found a TIA support group online and it's nice to know what I'm feeling is actually "normal". I guess people who don't go through this find it hard to understand. I know it gets better, it just takes time. I'm not feeling very patient!

I had pizza tonight. I can't remember the last time I ate pizza. Udi's is very small and my husband and I split one. It actually taste decent for GF and he has no idea it's GF. (That's really saying something for a GF product,ha!) It was just enough to have a nice "taste" of pizza for a change. I keep trying to "change" how I eat, but I don't know how to get any healthier. I don't know anyone who would last on the "diet"/ the food that I eat on a regular basis.Pizza I guess makes me feel like I'm normal and not starving myself.

I hate Mondays

B: 1 morningstar breakfast patty + 1/2 c.pineapple juice + 1 c.elderberry tea

L: Impossible whopper

SN: 1 vegan jerky

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You can tell when I eat something from burger king or taco bell, it's my once weekly trip out for the week. That's become our "treat". And I'm just tired of cooking. And I'm tired of eating. I wish we didn't have to eat. I'm bored with it all. It looks like I didn't eat much today but the impossible whopper fills me up and I don't want to eat much the rest of the day. It's more than I'm used to eating at one time anymore.

I've been back to eating GF since my hospital stay which is what I'm supposed to do all time(not for celiac but a gluten intolerance--I think its the damn glyphosate they spray on everything) but I ate a regular burger(bun) today. Sometimes you don't really have a choice. Eating out doesn't always cater to my fricking diet. And sometimes I don't care. I paid for it tonight with all the salt from it. Leg started swelling soon after lunch. That's the price I pay for convenience.

Blur of a weekend

L: fish taco: 3 oz. cod w/tartar & shredded cabbage on GF tortilla + 1 c. yellow squash + 1/2 tbsp. olive oil

D: beyond burger on bun w/mayo + 1/2 c.pineapple juice

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I haven't felt like doing much of anything the  past few days. I just feel blah. and I'm tired of watching what I eat and I don't lose any weight. I just gain and lose the same few pounds over and over. I'm just tired of it all.

the weekend!!!

L: 1 c zucchini + 1. cup vegetarian chili + 1/8 c. cheese + green onion

D: 2 slices GF bread + 3 slices tofurky deli slices + 1 tbsp. mayo + 1 apple

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Morning weigh in: 370.4

Didn't do much today. Last Saturday were so productive spring cleaning and I was able to sit outside in the warm sun.Today was freezing and I didn't want to do anything at all. We watched movies most the day. Didn't feel like eating a lot today (or cooking for that matter). that's odd. for me. :)

TGIF

B: 2 corn mini tortillas + 1 morningstar breakfast patty + 1/8 c. cheese + 2 tbsp taco sauce + elderberry tea

L: 1 morningstar chickpea patty + 1 c. yellow squash + 1 oz. cheddar + 1/2 tbsp olive oil

D: 2 gardein turky cutlets + 1 c green beans + 1/2 c.mashed potatoes

SN: 1 apple + 1 oz cheese + 1 vegan jerky

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Morning weigh in: 370.4

Swelling continues to ease up in  my leg, thankfully. Still can't pedal without pain, but I know if I can get some water off it will help. I realize now I should have taken time off instead of trying to go back to work just because I could work from home and not have to use sick leave. Bad mistake. My reading skills are getting better. I noticed that I skip over anything that has alot of reading to it, not that I can't read the words, but I feel "overwhelmed" at the thought of trying to read a big paragraph. Weird, must be a brain thing. I'm still having to proof read several times everything I write because I skip words.

Friday Eve

B: 1 c. elderberry tea

L: 1 c. zucchini + 1/8 c. shredded cheese + 1 quorn spicy chick'n patty + 1 mini cucumber + 1 tbsp. olive oil

SN: 1 Atkins protein shake + 1 oz. almonds

D: 1 c. yellow squash + 3 asparagus + 1/8 c. shredded cheese + 1 tbsp olive oil + 1 fish taco (1 GF tortilla w/4 oz fish, 1/4 c. shredded cabbage + 1 tbsp. tartar sauce)

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Morning weigh in: 371

I'm glad I got rid of 2 1/2 lbs of water since yesterday. My leg isn't hurting quite as bad today. I'm back to not caring what I eat (which still looks like a diet--it just means I add the occasional GF bread or 4 oz potato to a meal) to being afraid to eat. I don't want to cause anymore swelling. I keep telling myself if both drs brushed it off, I should too, but it's my body! and the swelling is painful!  I've got to get rid of this weight and I have no idea how to do it.

hump day

B: 1 c. strawberries + 1/4 c. egg beater w/diced mushroom, pepper.onion w/ 1/4 c. shredded cheese

L: 1 c. zucchini + 1 c. brussel sprouts + 1/4 c. cheese

SN: 1 c. pineapple juice

D: 1/2 c. gardein beefless tips + 1/2 c. broccoli + 1/2 c. mushrooms w/ sauce

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Morning weigh in: 373.4

Tried to pedal and my leg is so swollen it's painful. Like the skin is being stretched. Really trying not to worry, but I can't help it. Keep waking up at night and it's hard to get back to sleep. I'm obsessing over my health issues and I don't know what to do.

Disgusted with it all

B: 1 c strawberries

L: 2 c. low-carb taco soup + 1 tbsp. tofutti sour cream + 1/4 c. cheese

D: beyond burger on Udi bun w/mustard + 4 oz potato w/salsa

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Morning weigh in: 373.6

I'm tired. I don't give a damn about my weight. I'm tired of trying and seeing no results. No one cares enough to figure out what's wrong with me.

Not Monday AGAIN!

B: 3/4 c. Cheerios + 3/4 c. soymilk

L:  Impossible Whopper

D: 1/2 c. Jyoti peas & paneer + 1/2 c. Jyoti chickpeas w/potatoes & onions

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Morning weigh in: 373.0

Saw my PCP today. She will try to get me in with neurologist in Roanoke whenever. I was concerned with my swelling feet/legs. She flipped out which did not help me. She acted like they never swell. I had to remind yes, they do and you're the one who diagnosed lymphedema last year. It really irked me. I know I get a bit angry now easily, but really?? Damn, I've been seeing her like 10 years. Then she went back to her computer notes and I'm thinking, So what about the swelling? It was such a waste. I feel that way anymore. I'm a mystery to everyone. Why can't I lose weight? Why are my legs swelling? Why am I having these mini-strokes if I'm in such great health?? My faith in the medical system was not good but this has made it even worse. Why bother going to a DR or the ER??

Sunday

L: 6 oz. cod + 4 small mini sweet peppers baked w/ 1/8 c. shredded cheese + 1 c. roasted brussels sprouts

D:  2 c. low carb taco soup w/ 1 tbsp. tofutti sour cream + 1/4 c. shredded cheese


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Asthma flared up today. Neighbors were burning scrap pile all afternoon until after 2 am last night. I couldn't sleep because of the fire being so close to the house. And the smoke was drifting in and all you could smell was the smoke. UGH. Again, they left around 11pm last night and fire was still blazing. Idiots.

the weekend!!

B: Juice: 3 kale leaves, 1 lemon, 1 carrot, 1 apple, 1 cucumber

SN: Atkins protein shake

L: 2 c. salad mix+ 1/2 c.cucumber + 1/8 c. shredded cheese + 2 tbsp.ranch dressing + 7 morningstar parmesan garlic veggie wings

SN: 1 popsicle (Outshine sugar free juice bar)

D: 1 beyond burger + 4 oz potato w/ 1/8 c. shredded cheese + salsa

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Morning weigh in: 369.8

Slept in this morning which was much needed. I also sat outside for a few hours today. First real nice warm day I've been able to. I think it was much needed, a bit of fresh air, and "outside". New neighbors still working on new house and burning wood. UGH. Finally had to go inside to escape the burnt wood smell.

Hello May

B: 3/4 c. Cheerios + 3/4 c. soymilk + 1 c. coffee w/creamer

L: Taco bell black bean wrap fresco style (black beans, pico de gallo, lettuce) + 1 oz. nuts

D: 3 slices tofurky deli slices + 1 slice cheddar cheese + 2 slices Udi multigrain bread + mustard

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Morning weigh in: 370.4