B: 1 morningstar breakfast patty + 1/2 c.pineapple juice + 1 c.elderberry tea
L: Impossible whopper
SN: 1 vegan jerky
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You can tell when I eat something from burger king or taco bell, it's my once weekly trip out for the week. That's become our "treat". And I'm just tired of cooking. And I'm tired of eating. I wish we didn't have to eat. I'm bored with it all. It looks like I didn't eat much today but the impossible whopper fills me up and I don't want to eat much the rest of the day. It's more than I'm used to eating at one time anymore.
I've been back to eating GF since my hospital stay which is what I'm supposed to do all time(not for celiac but a gluten intolerance--I think its the damn glyphosate they spray on everything) but I ate a regular burger(bun) today. Sometimes you don't really have a choice. Eating out doesn't always cater to my fricking diet. And sometimes I don't care. I paid for it tonight with all the salt from it. Leg started swelling soon after lunch. That's the price I pay for convenience.
Monday, May 11, 2020
Sunday, May 10, 2020
Blur of a weekend
L: fish taco: 3 oz. cod w/tartar & shredded cabbage on GF tortilla + 1 c. yellow squash + 1/2 tbsp. olive oil
D: beyond burger on bun w/mayo + 1/2 c.pineapple juice
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I haven't felt like doing much of anything the past few days. I just feel blah. and I'm tired of watching what I eat and I don't lose any weight. I just gain and lose the same few pounds over and over. I'm just tired of it all.
D: beyond burger on bun w/mayo + 1/2 c.pineapple juice
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I haven't felt like doing much of anything the past few days. I just feel blah. and I'm tired of watching what I eat and I don't lose any weight. I just gain and lose the same few pounds over and over. I'm just tired of it all.
Saturday, May 9, 2020
the weekend!!!
L: 1 c zucchini + 1. cup vegetarian chili + 1/8 c. cheese + green onion
D: 2 slices GF bread + 3 slices tofurky deli slices + 1 tbsp. mayo + 1 apple
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Morning weigh in: 370.4
Didn't do much today. Last Saturday were so productive spring cleaning and I was able to sit outside in the warm sun.Today was freezing and I didn't want to do anything at all. We watched movies most the day. Didn't feel like eating a lot today (or cooking for that matter). that's odd. for me. :)
D: 2 slices GF bread + 3 slices tofurky deli slices + 1 tbsp. mayo + 1 apple
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Morning weigh in: 370.4
Didn't do much today. Last Saturday were so productive spring cleaning and I was able to sit outside in the warm sun.Today was freezing and I didn't want to do anything at all. We watched movies most the day. Didn't feel like eating a lot today (or cooking for that matter). that's odd. for me. :)
Friday, May 8, 2020
TGIF
B: 2 corn mini tortillas + 1 morningstar breakfast patty + 1/8 c. cheese + 2 tbsp taco sauce + elderberry tea
L: 1 morningstar chickpea patty + 1 c. yellow squash + 1 oz. cheddar + 1/2 tbsp olive oil
D: 2 gardein turky cutlets + 1 c green beans + 1/2 c.mashed potatoes
SN: 1 apple + 1 oz cheese + 1 vegan jerky
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Morning weigh in: 370.4
Swelling continues to ease up in my leg, thankfully. Still can't pedal without pain, but I know if I can get some water off it will help. I realize now I should have taken time off instead of trying to go back to work just because I could work from home and not have to use sick leave. Bad mistake. My reading skills are getting better. I noticed that I skip over anything that has alot of reading to it, not that I can't read the words, but I feel "overwhelmed" at the thought of trying to read a big paragraph. Weird, must be a brain thing. I'm still having to proof read several times everything I write because I skip words.
L: 1 morningstar chickpea patty + 1 c. yellow squash + 1 oz. cheddar + 1/2 tbsp olive oil
D: 2 gardein turky cutlets + 1 c green beans + 1/2 c.mashed potatoes
SN: 1 apple + 1 oz cheese + 1 vegan jerky
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Morning weigh in: 370.4
Swelling continues to ease up in my leg, thankfully. Still can't pedal without pain, but I know if I can get some water off it will help. I realize now I should have taken time off instead of trying to go back to work just because I could work from home and not have to use sick leave. Bad mistake. My reading skills are getting better. I noticed that I skip over anything that has alot of reading to it, not that I can't read the words, but I feel "overwhelmed" at the thought of trying to read a big paragraph. Weird, must be a brain thing. I'm still having to proof read several times everything I write because I skip words.
Thursday, May 7, 2020
Friday Eve
B: 1 c. elderberry tea
L: 1 c. zucchini + 1/8 c. shredded cheese + 1 quorn spicy chick'n patty + 1 mini cucumber + 1 tbsp. olive oil
SN: 1 Atkins protein shake + 1 oz. almonds
D: 1 c. yellow squash + 3 asparagus + 1/8 c. shredded cheese + 1 tbsp olive oil + 1 fish taco (1 GF tortilla w/4 oz fish, 1/4 c. shredded cabbage + 1 tbsp. tartar sauce)
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Morning weigh in: 371
I'm glad I got rid of 2 1/2 lbs of water since yesterday. My leg isn't hurting quite as bad today. I'm back to not caring what I eat (which still looks like a diet--it just means I add the occasional GF bread or 4 oz potato to a meal) to being afraid to eat. I don't want to cause anymore swelling. I keep telling myself if both drs brushed it off, I should too, but it's my body! and the swelling is painful! I've got to get rid of this weight and I have no idea how to do it.
L: 1 c. zucchini + 1/8 c. shredded cheese + 1 quorn spicy chick'n patty + 1 mini cucumber + 1 tbsp. olive oil
SN: 1 Atkins protein shake + 1 oz. almonds
D: 1 c. yellow squash + 3 asparagus + 1/8 c. shredded cheese + 1 tbsp olive oil + 1 fish taco (1 GF tortilla w/4 oz fish, 1/4 c. shredded cabbage + 1 tbsp. tartar sauce)
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Morning weigh in: 371
I'm glad I got rid of 2 1/2 lbs of water since yesterday. My leg isn't hurting quite as bad today. I'm back to not caring what I eat (which still looks like a diet--it just means I add the occasional GF bread or 4 oz potato to a meal) to being afraid to eat. I don't want to cause anymore swelling. I keep telling myself if both drs brushed it off, I should too, but it's my body! and the swelling is painful! I've got to get rid of this weight and I have no idea how to do it.
Wednesday, May 6, 2020
hump day
B: 1 c. strawberries + 1/4 c. egg beater w/diced mushroom, pepper.onion w/ 1/4 c. shredded cheese
L: 1 c. zucchini + 1 c. brussel sprouts + 1/4 c. cheese
SN: 1 c. pineapple juice
D: 1/2 c. gardein beefless tips + 1/2 c. broccoli + 1/2 c. mushrooms w/ sauce
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Morning weigh in: 373.4
Tried to pedal and my leg is so swollen it's painful. Like the skin is being stretched. Really trying not to worry, but I can't help it. Keep waking up at night and it's hard to get back to sleep. I'm obsessing over my health issues and I don't know what to do.
L: 1 c. zucchini + 1 c. brussel sprouts + 1/4 c. cheese
SN: 1 c. pineapple juice
D: 1/2 c. gardein beefless tips + 1/2 c. broccoli + 1/2 c. mushrooms w/ sauce
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Morning weigh in: 373.4
Tried to pedal and my leg is so swollen it's painful. Like the skin is being stretched. Really trying not to worry, but I can't help it. Keep waking up at night and it's hard to get back to sleep. I'm obsessing over my health issues and I don't know what to do.
Tuesday, May 5, 2020
Disgusted with it all
B: 1 c strawberries
L: 2 c. low-carb taco soup + 1 tbsp. tofutti sour cream + 1/4 c. cheese
D: beyond burger on Udi bun w/mustard + 4 oz potato w/salsa
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Morning weigh in: 373.6
I'm tired. I don't give a damn about my weight. I'm tired of trying and seeing no results. No one cares enough to figure out what's wrong with me.
L: 2 c. low-carb taco soup + 1 tbsp. tofutti sour cream + 1/4 c. cheese
D: beyond burger on Udi bun w/mustard + 4 oz potato w/salsa
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Morning weigh in: 373.6
I'm tired. I don't give a damn about my weight. I'm tired of trying and seeing no results. No one cares enough to figure out what's wrong with me.
Monday, May 4, 2020
Not Monday AGAIN!
B: 3/4 c. Cheerios + 3/4 c. soymilk
L: Impossible Whopper
D: 1/2 c. Jyoti peas & paneer + 1/2 c. Jyoti chickpeas w/potatoes & onions
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Morning weigh in: 373.0
Saw my PCP today. She will try to get me in with neurologist in Roanoke whenever. I was concerned with my swelling feet/legs. She flipped out which did not help me. She acted like they never swell. I had to remind yes, they do and you're the one who diagnosed lymphedema last year. It really irked me. I know I get a bit angry now easily, but really?? Damn, I've been seeing her like 10 years. Then she went back to her computer notes and I'm thinking, So what about the swelling? It was such a waste. I feel that way anymore. I'm a mystery to everyone. Why can't I lose weight? Why are my legs swelling? Why am I having these mini-strokes if I'm in such great health?? My faith in the medical system was not good but this has made it even worse. Why bother going to a DR or the ER??
L: Impossible Whopper
D: 1/2 c. Jyoti peas & paneer + 1/2 c. Jyoti chickpeas w/potatoes & onions
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Morning weigh in: 373.0
Saw my PCP today. She will try to get me in with neurologist in Roanoke whenever. I was concerned with my swelling feet/legs. She flipped out which did not help me. She acted like they never swell. I had to remind yes, they do and you're the one who diagnosed lymphedema last year. It really irked me. I know I get a bit angry now easily, but really?? Damn, I've been seeing her like 10 years. Then she went back to her computer notes and I'm thinking, So what about the swelling? It was such a waste. I feel that way anymore. I'm a mystery to everyone. Why can't I lose weight? Why are my legs swelling? Why am I having these mini-strokes if I'm in such great health?? My faith in the medical system was not good but this has made it even worse. Why bother going to a DR or the ER??
Sunday, May 3, 2020
Sunday
L: 6 oz. cod + 4 small mini sweet peppers baked w/ 1/8 c. shredded cheese + 1 c. roasted brussels sprouts
D: 2 c. low carb taco soup w/ 1 tbsp. tofutti sour cream + 1/4 c. shredded cheese
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Asthma flared up today. Neighbors were burning scrap pile all afternoon until after 2 am last night. I couldn't sleep because of the fire being so close to the house. And the smoke was drifting in and all you could smell was the smoke. UGH. Again, they left around 11pm last night and fire was still blazing. Idiots.
D: 2 c. low carb taco soup w/ 1 tbsp. tofutti sour cream + 1/4 c. shredded cheese
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Asthma flared up today. Neighbors were burning scrap pile all afternoon until after 2 am last night. I couldn't sleep because of the fire being so close to the house. And the smoke was drifting in and all you could smell was the smoke. UGH. Again, they left around 11pm last night and fire was still blazing. Idiots.
Saturday, May 2, 2020
the weekend!!
B: Juice: 3 kale leaves, 1 lemon, 1 carrot, 1 apple, 1 cucumber
SN: Atkins protein shake
L: 2 c. salad mix+ 1/2 c.cucumber + 1/8 c. shredded cheese + 2 tbsp.ranch dressing + 7 morningstar parmesan garlic veggie wings
SN: 1 popsicle (Outshine sugar free juice bar)
D: 1 beyond burger + 4 oz potato w/ 1/8 c. shredded cheese + salsa
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Morning weigh in: 369.8
Slept in this morning which was much needed. I also sat outside for a few hours today. First real nice warm day I've been able to. I think it was much needed, a bit of fresh air, and "outside". New neighbors still working on new house and burning wood. UGH. Finally had to go inside to escape the burnt wood smell.
SN: Atkins protein shake
L: 2 c. salad mix+ 1/2 c.cucumber + 1/8 c. shredded cheese + 2 tbsp.ranch dressing + 7 morningstar parmesan garlic veggie wings
SN: 1 popsicle (Outshine sugar free juice bar)
D: 1 beyond burger + 4 oz potato w/ 1/8 c. shredded cheese + salsa
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Morning weigh in: 369.8
Slept in this morning which was much needed. I also sat outside for a few hours today. First real nice warm day I've been able to. I think it was much needed, a bit of fresh air, and "outside". New neighbors still working on new house and burning wood. UGH. Finally had to go inside to escape the burnt wood smell.
Friday, May 1, 2020
Hello May
B: 3/4 c. Cheerios + 3/4 c. soymilk + 1 c. coffee w/creamer
L: Taco bell black bean wrap fresco style (black beans, pico de gallo, lettuce) + 1 oz. nuts
D: 3 slices tofurky deli slices + 1 slice cheddar cheese + 2 slices Udi multigrain bread + mustard
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Morning weigh in: 370.4
L: Taco bell black bean wrap fresco style (black beans, pico de gallo, lettuce) + 1 oz. nuts
D: 3 slices tofurky deli slices + 1 slice cheddar cheese + 2 slices Udi multigrain bread + mustard
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Morning weigh in: 370.4
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