Water weight is coming off!

8am: 1 c. earl grey tea

11am: 1 c. elderberry/hibiscus tea

130pm: 1 serv. (1/5) quorn roast + 1 c. red chard + 2 c. zucchini w/ 1/4 c. shredded cheese + 1 tbsp. oilve oil

6pm: 1/2 grape juice

630pm: huge guilt-free taco salad-- 2 c. salad mix + 2 oz. quorn meatless crumbles w/taco seasoning + 2 tbsp. almonds + 1 small cucumber + 1/4 c. shredded cheese + 2 tbsp. ranch dressing + 4 tbsp. salsa

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morning weigh in: 373.2

Hump day

8am: 1 c. earl grey tea

11am: 1 c. elderberry/hibiscus tea

2pm: 2 c. zucchini w/ 1/4 c. shredded cheese + 1 tbsp. olive oil + 2 "non-yolk" deviled eggs

330pm: 1 teriyaki vegan jerky

5pm: 1 black bean crunch wrap fresco style at Taco Bell

9pm: 1 teriyaki vegan jerky + 1 apple + 2 oz. cheese

*exciting day to Kroger for click-list pickup. I'm usually out once a week now groceries or pharmacy during this time of stay at home order. Woo-hoo. A car ride!
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weight: 374.8

Tuesday, or Monday #2

8am: 1 c. earl grey tea

245pm: 2 "no-yolk" egg whites + 1 c. zucchini w/ 1/8 c. shredded cheese +  1/2 tbsp. olive oil + 1 c. cucumber w/ 1 tbsp. ranch dressing + 1 serving (1/5) quorn roast

645pm: 2 c. red chard w/ 1/2 tbsp. olive oil + 1 c. rainbow carrots + 1 c. navy beans

915pm: 1 apple + 2 oz. cheese + 1 teriyaki vegan jerky

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morning weight: 377.2

So the plan is to come up with ideas of things I can do when I want to mindlessly eat. I remember making a list like this from my days of OA (Overeaters Anonymous). How about:

* have a cup of hot tea
* pedal a few minutes
* deep breathing
* chat with a friend
* blog
* check my protein #'s for the day (this is a new one for me. I realized today that I really haven't had much protein and this is what I am usually lacking on.)

Coronovirus Blues

I've been working from home since March 26. My food the same as ever except for occasional pop-tart treat or 1 serving of pasta for dinner. No point in lying, I have also eaten some bbq chips in the past 3 weeks being at home. I know it's stress eating. But I was surprised my weight was 370 when I weighed on April 7. I fluctuate between 363 and 370 all the time, depending on my swelling. It's really aggravating and honestly pisses me off when I consider how little I eat.

My legs have swelled up (lymphedema) and I have a lot of bloating going on right now. I had terrible stomach pains Sunday night and thought I was to have to go to the ER. Every time I go with these pains (about 3 times over the past 2 years) they tell me it's my vagus nerve and my gastroparesis is causing the issues. I don't really understand that except to say it feels like a knife straight thru from my stomach to my spine.I can't stand up and laying down is the only thing that makes it bearable until it subsides. I'm almost grateful for it this time though because it has caused me to clean up the food issues as I'm afraid to eat much. I have no idea what sets it off.

Easter Sunday, April 12:

1130am: 2 LC tortillas with 1/4 c. EB, 1 Morninstar Farms "soysage" patty, 1/4 c. shredded cheese, taco sauace + 1 c. Earl grey tea

3:30pm: 2 slices Quorn turky "roast" + 2 slices Tofurkey "ham" + 1 c. green beans w/garlic + 2 "non-yolk" deviled eggs.

7pm: 1 strawberry poptart

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Weight: 380!! Holy cow, my weight has gone up 10 lbs.in 3 days. Yeah I know it's water, but DAMN.


Monday April 13:

8am: 1 c. earl grey

1130am: 1 c.elderberry/hibiscus tea

145pm: 1 c. cabbage w/ /1/2 tbsp. butter, 2 slices of Quorn turky roast + 2 "non-yolk" deviled eggs

615pm: 6 spears asparagus +1 small sliced zucchini both cooked in 1 tbsp.olive oil and 1/8 cheddar cheese + 1/4 alfredo sauce + 1 slice diced quorn turkey roast

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Weight: still 380. Actually 380.4. Yep it went up .4 since yesterday. Is it no wonder why I feel disgusted and hopeless about this?

What are non-yolk deviled eggs? Since I"m allergic to egg yolk, I haven't been able to eat deviled eggs in about 40 years. No love loss though. I never really liked the taste of them. My first Thanksgiving married to Jeff, his parents came down for the holiday and when I got home from work that Wednesday before Thanksgiving, his mom had been cooking all day. She had me try these "deviled eggs" she made just for me. Well I was convinced she really was trying to do me in, but Jeff kept telling me they had no egg yolk. They were quite aware of my allergy. It LOOKED like a deviled egg. I slowly took a bite and was surprised it tasted good (whatever it was.) I can't stand the smell of egg yolks--it smells worse than dog poop to me. She had taken leftover mashed potatoes (which really don't have much of a "taste" when you think about it and added mustard and pickle relish.) Now I can't stand cold potatoes, but it was a great base for the mustard and relish. Needless to say, those are a specialty item that I had her make for me on the holidays (Easter, Thanksgiving, Christmas). Now that she's gone, I have continued the tradition and Jeff eats them with me. (With his cholesterol, he really doesn't need egg yolks!)

Monday #2

630am: Juice (2 carrots + 1 romaine + 1 cucumber + 1 lemon) + 1 c. earl grey

830am: 1 c. vanilla chai tea

1030am: 1 c. red grapes + 1/4 c. almonds

12pm: 1 egg white (hard boiled egg) + 1 oz.  pepper jack cheese + 6 medley cherry tomatoes + 1/2 fennel roasted with parmesan + 1 c. stir-fry + 1/2 c. red cabbage + onion + garlic + 1/2 tbsp. olive oil + 1 Quorn spicy chick'n patty

230pm: 1 red pear

6pm: 2 salmon cakes (I made: salmon, red/green peppers/onion/almond flour/EB) + 1 c. green beans + 1 tbsp. olive oil + Atkins SF "brownie"



**Morning weigh-in: 363

Blah, it's Monday again

630am: Juice (2 carrots + 1 romaine + 1 cucumber + 1 lemon) + 1 c. earl grey

1030am: 1 c. red grapes + 1/4 c. almonds + 1 c. earl grey

130pm: 1 egg white (hard boiled egg) + 1 oz.  pepper jack cheese + 6 medley cherry tomatoes + 1/2 fennel roasted with parmesan + 1 c. stir-fry + 1/2 c. red cabbage + onion + garlic + 1/2 tbsp. olive oil

230pm: 1 apple

530pm: 1 Impossible whopper


**Morning weigh-in: 364.6

Sunday

I find it interesting that I only eat fish when I'm low-carbing. My husband is the pescatarian, so I cook it for him about once or twice a week. I don't like it or hate it, it's just not usually something I think to eat (unless I'm doing the low-carb food plan.)


930am: 2 low-carb tortillas + 1/4 c. EB + 1 MSF breakfast patty + 1 slice cheddar + 1 c. earl grey

2pm: 4 oz. cod + 1 tbsp. olive oil + 2 c. green beans w/garlic/onions + 1 c. grapes

330pm: 1 Atkins chocolate nut roll

6pm: 1 c. taco soup + 1 tbsp. Tofutti sour cream

**Morning weigh-in: 364.6

Saturday

Yay! Finally Saturday! and it's not raining--bonus! We decided to run to Roanoke and of course, eat Chinese! I did quite well at the buffet and feeling proud.

930am: 2 low-carb tortillas + 1/4 c. EB + 1 MSF breakfast patty + 1 slice cheddar + 1 c. earl grey

4pm: 1 c. tofu + 3 c. garlic green beans + 1 c. mushrooms

6pm: blueberry cake donut (yep, I ate it and don't feel bad) + 1 c. hot tea

730pm: 1 c. grapes


**Morning weigh-in: 365.2

Valentine's Day 2020

Still have a headache today. Back to work... Guess now I know why I felt bad yesterday. It looks like I'm getting my period again. It's been about 3 months since the last one, so great....happy valentine's day to me.

630am: 1/2 c. Trop50 OJ + 2 low-carb tortillas + 1 MSF breakfast patty + 1/4 c. egg beaters + 1 tbsp. taco sauce

9am: 1 c. earl grey tea

1230pm: 1.5 c. stir-fry veggies (broccoli, snow peas, bok choy, kale) + 1/2 c. red cabbage + onion + 4 cloves garlic + 1/2 tbsp. olive oil + 1/3 c. blackberries + 1/2 c.  pineapple + 1 1/2 oz. cheese

5pm:  Impossible burger (yep, that's actually what I wanted for Valentine's day!) 

630pm: 1 Atkins "brownie"
I've been eating FF + no added oil for so long that the 1/2 tbsp. of oil tastes weird and well, "oily" to me. I guess I'll get used to it again.

**Exciting news, weigh-in this morning: 368.6

Tweaking my food plan

After my visit with Jill yesterday, I'm feeling much better about my food plan. I almost feel "hopeful" again.  We've tweaked it down to less starchy carbs/more vegetables & fruits. I'm not adding the calories up or looking at macros. That's the plan--just follow the damn chart!

1030am: 1/2 c. Trop50 OJ + 2 low-carb tortillas + 1 MSF breakfast patty + 1/4 c. egg beaters + 1 oz. cheddar cheese

140pm: 1 Quorn spicy chick'n patty + 1 apple + 1 c. cherry tomatoes + 1 oz. cheese

325pm: 1 c. FF SF hot chocolate + 1 Primal vegan jerky

630pm: 1 c. green beans/onion/garlic cooked in 1/2 tbsp. olive oil + 4 oz. white cod 

I wasn't hungry today. Home sick and not feeling like eating a lot.

Here we go...another day with less starchy carbs

It was nice not eating potatoes with my lunch yesterday. I've been complaining that I feel so stuffed after lunch lately and I think it was the potatoes. Granted, I only eat 3 oz. at a time, but wow what a difference it made to my stomach.

I have to admit, I didn't get hungry yesterday. I added more protein and added fat to my diet which scares me. I don't know why. You know looking back, I gained most of my weight during the 90's which was all about low-fat, low-calorie dieting.  And I lost the most weight eating fat and protein a few years ago. I guess I'm just afraid no matter what I do, I'm going to keep gaining.

I think I'm going to find a few more videos with Dr. Fung talking about insulin resistance.


630am: 2 low-carb mini tortillas + 1 MSF breakfast patty + 1/4 c. egg beaters + 1 tbsp. taco sauce + 1 tbsp. coconut oil + 1 c. earl grey tea + 1/2 c. Trop50 OJ (w/elderberry syrup)

9am: 1 c. earl grey tea

11am: 1 protein drink + 1/4 c. almonds

12pm: 2 c. stir-fry veggies + 1 c. baby kale + 4 cloves garlic + 1/2 c. red cabbage + 1/4 onion + 1 tbsp. sesame seeds + 1/3 c. blackberries + 17 black grapes + 1 1/2 oz. cheese

6pm:  Beyond burger on bun with mayo/onion + 1 c. swiss chard
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total calories: 1807
morning weigh-in: 371.4 (I find this interesting that it's down considering my leg is swollen again today)
**12 hour fast