Monday #2

630am: Juice (2 carrots + 1 romaine + 1 cucumber + 1 lemon) + 1 c. earl grey

830am: 1 c. vanilla chai tea

1030am: 1 c. red grapes + 1/4 c. almonds

12pm: 1 egg white (hard boiled egg) + 1 oz.  pepper jack cheese + 6 medley cherry tomatoes + 1/2 fennel roasted with parmesan + 1 c. stir-fry + 1/2 c. red cabbage + onion + garlic + 1/2 tbsp. olive oil + 1 Quorn spicy chick'n patty

230pm: 1 red pear

6pm: 2 salmon cakes (I made: salmon, red/green peppers/onion/almond flour/EB) + 1 c. green beans + 1 tbsp. olive oil + Atkins SF "brownie"



**Morning weigh-in: 363

Blah, it's Monday again

630am: Juice (2 carrots + 1 romaine + 1 cucumber + 1 lemon) + 1 c. earl grey

1030am: 1 c. red grapes + 1/4 c. almonds + 1 c. earl grey

130pm: 1 egg white (hard boiled egg) + 1 oz.  pepper jack cheese + 6 medley cherry tomatoes + 1/2 fennel roasted with parmesan + 1 c. stir-fry + 1/2 c. red cabbage + onion + garlic + 1/2 tbsp. olive oil

230pm: 1 apple

530pm: 1 Impossible whopper


**Morning weigh-in: 364.6

Sunday

I find it interesting that I only eat fish when I'm low-carbing. My husband is the pescatarian, so I cook it for him about once or twice a week. I don't like it or hate it, it's just not usually something I think to eat (unless I'm doing the low-carb food plan.)


930am: 2 low-carb tortillas + 1/4 c. EB + 1 MSF breakfast patty + 1 slice cheddar + 1 c. earl grey

2pm: 4 oz. cod + 1 tbsp. olive oil + 2 c. green beans w/garlic/onions + 1 c. grapes

330pm: 1 Atkins chocolate nut roll

6pm: 1 c. taco soup + 1 tbsp. Tofutti sour cream

**Morning weigh-in: 364.6

Saturday

Yay! Finally Saturday! and it's not raining--bonus! We decided to run to Roanoke and of course, eat Chinese! I did quite well at the buffet and feeling proud.

930am: 2 low-carb tortillas + 1/4 c. EB + 1 MSF breakfast patty + 1 slice cheddar + 1 c. earl grey

4pm: 1 c. tofu + 3 c. garlic green beans + 1 c. mushrooms

6pm: blueberry cake donut (yep, I ate it and don't feel bad) + 1 c. hot tea

730pm: 1 c. grapes


**Morning weigh-in: 365.2

Valentine's Day 2020

Still have a headache today. Back to work... Guess now I know why I felt bad yesterday. It looks like I'm getting my period again. It's been about 3 months since the last one, so great....happy valentine's day to me.

630am: 1/2 c. Trop50 OJ + 2 low-carb tortillas + 1 MSF breakfast patty + 1/4 c. egg beaters + 1 tbsp. taco sauce

9am: 1 c. earl grey tea

1230pm: 1.5 c. stir-fry veggies (broccoli, snow peas, bok choy, kale) + 1/2 c. red cabbage + onion + 4 cloves garlic + 1/2 tbsp. olive oil + 1/3 c. blackberries + 1/2 c.  pineapple + 1 1/2 oz. cheese

5pm:  Impossible burger (yep, that's actually what I wanted for Valentine's day!) 

630pm: 1 Atkins "brownie"
I've been eating FF + no added oil for so long that the 1/2 tbsp. of oil tastes weird and well, "oily" to me. I guess I'll get used to it again.

**Exciting news, weigh-in this morning: 368.6

Tweaking my food plan

After my visit with Jill yesterday, I'm feeling much better about my food plan. I almost feel "hopeful" again.  We've tweaked it down to less starchy carbs/more vegetables & fruits. I'm not adding the calories up or looking at macros. That's the plan--just follow the damn chart!

1030am: 1/2 c. Trop50 OJ + 2 low-carb tortillas + 1 MSF breakfast patty + 1/4 c. egg beaters + 1 oz. cheddar cheese

140pm: 1 Quorn spicy chick'n patty + 1 apple + 1 c. cherry tomatoes + 1 oz. cheese

325pm: 1 c. FF SF hot chocolate + 1 Primal vegan jerky

630pm: 1 c. green beans/onion/garlic cooked in 1/2 tbsp. olive oil + 4 oz. white cod 

I wasn't hungry today. Home sick and not feeling like eating a lot.

Here we go...another day with less starchy carbs

It was nice not eating potatoes with my lunch yesterday. I've been complaining that I feel so stuffed after lunch lately and I think it was the potatoes. Granted, I only eat 3 oz. at a time, but wow what a difference it made to my stomach.

I have to admit, I didn't get hungry yesterday. I added more protein and added fat to my diet which scares me. I don't know why. You know looking back, I gained most of my weight during the 90's which was all about low-fat, low-calorie dieting.  And I lost the most weight eating fat and protein a few years ago. I guess I'm just afraid no matter what I do, I'm going to keep gaining.

I think I'm going to find a few more videos with Dr. Fung talking about insulin resistance.


630am: 2 low-carb mini tortillas + 1 MSF breakfast patty + 1/4 c. egg beaters + 1 tbsp. taco sauce + 1 tbsp. coconut oil + 1 c. earl grey tea + 1/2 c. Trop50 OJ (w/elderberry syrup)

9am: 1 c. earl grey tea

11am: 1 protein drink + 1/4 c. almonds

12pm: 2 c. stir-fry veggies + 1 c. baby kale + 4 cloves garlic + 1/2 c. red cabbage + 1/4 onion + 1 tbsp. sesame seeds + 1/3 c. blackberries + 17 black grapes + 1 1/2 oz. cheese

6pm:  Beyond burger on bun with mayo/onion + 1 c. swiss chard
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total calories: 1807
morning weigh-in: 371.4 (I find this interesting that it's down considering my leg is swollen again today)
**12 hour fast

I'm tired of it all

I'm tired of counting calories. I'm tired of manipulating my macros. I'm tired of worrying about what can I eat that's ok for my food plan. I know other people don't act this way. Surely other people don't obsess over every little detail of food. Is it low-fat enough? Is it low-calorie enough? When is enough, enough?

I'm thinking of doing a modified low-carb diet. Nothing drastic as keto, but less than 100 carbs a day. Just for one week to see how things go. I can't keep gaining weight. I was the same today at 373. I'm terrified of waking up a year from now and being back at 524.  I don't know why I can't eat so many healthy carbs that other folks can. I see people eating potatoes and rice and bread and I'm so jealous. I've been trying to eat "healthy" and eat WFPB more. I just can't handle eating all these starches. I know that's what's making me gain weight. Is there something wrong with me? I've been watching Dr. Fung talk about insulin resistance and I believe I have it bad!

I've got to get rid of some of this weight. I don't have a choice. I'm not going to live much longer if I don't lose weight. How many old people do you see at my weight? I don't know if I've ever seen any. My first goal is under 350 lbs., then 300. I haven't seen 300 lbs. in almost 15 years. You know I keep thinking what if I cause myself another stroke, but how long do I really think I'm going to live at this weight?

630am: 2 mini low-carb tortillas + 1 MSF breakfast patty +  1/4 c. egg beaters + 1/2 tbsp. coconut oil + 1 tbsp. taco sauce + 1/2 c. Trop50 OJ (w/elderberry juice) + 1 c. earl grey

 * 260 calorie breakfast and I feel great! I miss a little breakfast in the morning when I eat light for dinner the night before. I've been trying to do the longer fasts and I'm tired of feeling hungry all the time. I'm surprised the egg beaters didn't make me sick this morning.

915am: 1 c. green tea

11am: 1 protein drink + 1 oz. pistachios

1:45pm: 1/2 c. raspberries + 1 1/2 oz. cheese + 2 c. stir-fry veggies + 1 c. baby kale + 4 cloves garlic + 1/2 c. red cabbage + 1 tbsp. sesame seeds

3pm: 1 atkins coconut bar

6pm:   Quorn chick'n patty + 2 c. broccoli w/ cheese

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total calories: 1811 (hmm...I ate more calories today, on the higher end, but feel good)
Morning weigh-in: 373
**12 hour fast
**30 min. pedaling

I am the definition of insanity

Insanity has been described as doing the same thing over and over again and expecting different results. That's were I'm at right now. I'm watching what I eat, focusing on no added fats, more veggies and what I get? the water game. Weight up today to 373.

I. GIVE. UP.

I don't know what to do. I keep eating what I think is "healthy" and "low-fat" and "low-calorie" and the scales aren't budging except to tell me how much salt was in my food the previous day. I'm even fasting around 16 hours a day and nothing changes! My God, what is wrong with me????

I have a Dr. appt Friday to re-test my thyroid. My dr. reduced my Synthroid in December since my labs were too high. On an interesting note, she called in the generic which I've been on now. I've been on actual Synthroid for years. I can't remember why now, but there was a problem with the generic and that's why I had to do the actual Synthroid. I'm anxious to have my labs done. On a good note, I finally finished my amoxicillin today.

I miss the weight loss from eating keto. I don't miss the mini-strokes. I just can't believe that a diet of 70% fat (no matter what that fat is) can be healthy. And I do believe it contributed to my TIAs. But God I miss the weight loss. It was so easy and I wasn't hungry all the time. I know there is a vegan keto, but again, how can a diet of 70% fat be healthy? really? I did it as a vegetarian out of desperation and lost a lot of weight. I don't want to go back down that road, but what choice to I have? Surgery or keto again? I don't think my body likes all these carbs. I've been getting great blood sugars and great blood pressure readings, but damn--no weight loss!

630am: 1 c. earl grey

9am: 1 c. earl grey

1130am: 1/4 c almonds + 1/2 c. pineapple [230 cal: 20 g. carb, 16 g. fat, 7 g. protein]

1pm: 3 oz. potatoes + 1/2 c. rainbow carrots + 1/2 c. raspberries +  2 c. stir-fry veggies + 1/2 c. purple cabbage + 1/4 onion + 4 cloves garlic + 2 cups baby kale (all stir-fried in broth, no oil!) + 1 tbsp. sesame seeds + 1 quorn chick'n patty [361 calories:  68 g. carb,  4 g. fat, 17g. protein]

630pm: taco salad (2 cups kale salad + 1/2 c. refried beans + 1/4 c. whole grain brown Spanish rice + 1/2 c. roasted corn + 1/2 c. Boca crumbles + 1 tbsp. diced jalapeños + 6 tbsp. salsa + 2 mini white corn tortillas "toasted" for "chips") [419 calories: 83g. carbs,  6 g. fat,  24 g. protein]

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total calories: 1010
**17 hours fasting

Disgusted

372.2 Why did I even think it wouldn't go up again today. I'm disgusted. My back is killing me today from bending over & lifting too much yesterday in my zest for cleaning house! I really don't want to have to go back to the chiropractor again.

1030am: 1 c. diced potatoes w/onion/peppers ("fried" in broth) + 1 MSF breakfast patty + 1 c. earl grey + 1/2 c. trop50 OJ (w/elderberry juice)

1215: 1 banana

105pm: refried bean tortilla (1/2 c. refried beans + mushroom/onion/green pepper/salsa) on low-carb tortilla w/ 1 serving (1/2 c.) brown rice Spanish rice (more salsa!)

325pm: 1 c. SF hot chocolate + 2 fig newtons

625pm: 2 c. low carb taco soup w/ 1 tbsp. Tofutti sour cream

I'm not eating "low carb" but these are foods we like.

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calories: 1406
16 hour, 30 min. fasting

Tired of this

Weighed in at 369.6. I'm betting it will go up tomorrow AGAIN. I'm so tired of this game. It's a cold wet yucky Saturday, so I plan on staying in and cleaning house today.

1030am: 1 slice toast + 1 MSF breakfast patty + 1 banana + 1 c. earl grey tea

1230pm: 2 c. Instant Pot Potato soup + 1 slice toast

6pm: 1 c. angel hair pasta + 1/2 c. plant-based alfredo sauce + 1 Lightlife Bratwurst sausage + mushrooms/onions/garlic

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calories: 1584
15 hour, 30 min. fasting