Friday again

B: 1/2 c. egg beaters + 1 morningstar patty + 1/8 c. shredded cheese

L/D: Impossible whopper

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Morning weigh in: 377.2

Frickin' scales

B: 1/4 c. egg beaters + 1 morningstar patty + 2 street tacos + taco sauce

L: 1 c brussel sprouts + 1 c. carrots + 1 quorn chick'n w/ bbq sauce

D: beyond burger w/ 2 c. mustard greens

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Morning weigh in:  377.2

Hump day

B: 1/2 c. egg beater + 1/2 c. cottage cheese

L: Impossible whopper

D: 1/2 Udi's pizza w/ 1 c. berries

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Morning weigh in: 375.8

Tuesday

B: 1/2 c. egg beaters + 1/2 c. cottage cheese + 1/2 c/ strawberries + 1/8 c. shredded cheese

L: 2 tbsp hummus + 2 c. zucchini + 8 olives + 1 tbsp olive oil + 2 figs/ 2 apricots

D: beyond burger + 1 c.broccolini w/1/8 c. cheese

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Morning weigh in: 373.8

Monday...again!

B: 1/2 c. egg beaters + 1/2 c. cottage cheese

L: Impossible whopper

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Morning weigh in: 371.8

Blahhhh

L: 1 whole wheat pita + 2 tbsp hummus + 1/2 c. cucumber

D: 2 c. stir fry veggies w/ 1 quorn chick'n (plain)

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Morning weigh in: 371.8

Didn't eat alot today as I've been feeling sick today.

ahhh....the weekend

B: 1/2 c. egg beaters + 1/2 c. cottage cheese

L: 2 tbsp. hummus+ 8 olives + 1 c. cucumber + 2 oz cheese + 2 figs/2 apricots

D: 4 oz. baked cod + 3 mini sweet peppers w/2 tbsp cream cheese + 1 c spinach

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Morning weigh in: 371.8

TGIF

B: 1/2 c. vanilla yogurt + 3 figs + 3 dried apricots + 1/2 c. strawberries

L: 2 c. salad + 10 olives + 1 tbsp. sliced almonds + 1/8 c. shredded cheese + 1 spicy chick'n patty + 2 tbsp. ranch

D: Impossible whopper

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Morning weigh in: 371

I ate a biscuit yesterday! It was a nice change. See a change in my weight? It doesn't matter what I eat, number goes up/number goes down, but it never really changes. Why bother.

Number game continues

B: 1 biscuit + 1 morningstar farm breakfast patty + 2 c tea

L:  1 taco bell black bean burrito fresco style

D: 1 spicy chick'n patty + 1 c. green beans + 1/2 tbsp. butter

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Morning weigh in: 371.2

Why should I care what I eat? What's the purpose of eating so damn healthy and low calorie if I'm not losing weight and I will continue the numbers game????

Hump day, no humor

L: 1 carbmaster yogurt + 2 c. zucchini w/ 1/8 c. shredded cheese + 1 tbsp. olive oil

D: 4 oz salmon + 2 c. rainbow chard + 2 SF popsicles

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Morning weigh in: 370

It feels like number game. I can't break 370. In a day or two, I will gain 4 lbs over night and here we will be once again, trying to get back to 370.This is my life. Over and over.

Not sleeping well

L: 2 slices Udi's cheese pizza + salad (1c.romaine + red pepper + 1/8c. shredded cheese + 1 tbsp ranch)

D: taco salad (2 cups romaine + boca crumbles + 1/8 c. shredded cheese + tofutti sour cream + salsa)

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Morning weigh in:  371

I'm not sleeping well again. I wake up several times a night and it's hard for me to go back to sleep. I still can't get under 370. What is my problem? How can anyone stay this fat on what I'm eating? Maybe I should just quit eating and see what happens. My God, surely I can't keep gaining weight, can I????

My boss asked if I was interested in an alternate work schedule when we get back to "normal". Some folks want to work four 10-hour days. I remember a time I would have jumped at that. Now I can barely make it through 8 hours. I did request the telework option twice a week. I don't know how I'm going to get back to a normal work schedule the way I feel. I told him I wasn't doing as well as I thought and I should have taken a few days off instead of going straight back to work. He agreed and said he was surprised I did that. Well, I thought I could. I'm just not bouncing back as quickly as I have before. There's something different here. I remember the doom and gloom I felt last year. This seems worse. But I can tell I'm better than I was two weeks ago. I've found a TIA support group online and it's nice to know what I'm feeling is actually "normal". I guess people who don't go through this find it hard to understand. I know it gets better, it just takes time. I'm not feeling very patient!

I had pizza tonight. I can't remember the last time I ate pizza. Udi's is very small and my husband and I split one. It actually taste decent for GF and he has no idea it's GF. (That's really saying something for a GF product,ha!) It was just enough to have a nice "taste" of pizza for a change. I keep trying to "change" how I eat, but I don't know how to get any healthier. I don't know anyone who would last on the "diet"/ the food that I eat on a regular basis.Pizza I guess makes me feel like I'm normal and not starving myself.